9.18.2005

Work vs. School

So in order to get a job, you need a college education.
However, in order to pay for school after you have dropped out once, you have to have a job.

It's really a vicious cycle I'm stuck in! School being the best option for further any career I may want, if I don't go about it right, I'm going to drown in debt built up from 3 previous years of schooling.

The hardest part has been my inconsistent schedule working and not making enough money these last 2 months. And I admit, i could have found other options to supplement hours, but i've also been working on finding something stable, and possibly with benefits. So that quest has led me to two options:

1. A computer tech job at BGSU that I would love!

2. A software company in Uniontown, Ohio that I have a second interview with, and could be my best job option available.

The former would be good for several reasons. One being I know someone working in the department and he's a good friend. I have family around that area. It would be a salaried job with benefits and good pay. I would also receive a certain amount of free credits I could use. That is the ultimate perk. One that has had me searching college human resources for job opportunities. Not much available, but if I could get something there, it would be fantastic!

The latter is one in a field I could enjoy and would pay pretty well starting pay ($10/her) and benefits. I would have to relocate, and possible quit school to work there full time. However, if I am able to get settled there, I could work school back into my schedule.

The other option is just going to school full-time. However, that means more loans, which is scary and also requiring me to fill out FASFA all over again. So, i can do that, but at this point, it won't work for this semester and maybe in the spring when I'm ready to go, chomping at the bit.

So, that is my view on my options ahead of me. I have to wait to make these decisions though, because I haven't actually gotten a job offer. The BG job might not even call me for an interview, i have to wait to hear about that whole process. Soooo.. school for now, but I think if I get one of the jobs, I need to rethink school, and put it off longer. Which won't be popular with the parents. Which is a scary thing, if you know anything about my mom (she is a sweet lady) but when it comes to my situation she is very unforgiving! I am intimidated by her, and fear her scrutiny.
Because I can't win unless I do what she thinks is best.

I think independence is really what I need, because as long as I keep using my parents as a crutch (a very financially stable crutch) I am not going to force myself to do something or accept the responsibility that I have to. The downside to that is, if I go and fail, i'm in a bit of trouble. So i continually debate this as I exist, and hopefully, it'll all work out for the best.

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