I hate "i hate"

it's recently been brought to my attention that I say "I hate x" a lot, where x is any word, noun, verb, adjective, adverb, all right you get the picture

"i hate swimmingly"

bad example

But I say I hate people a lot. And it doesn't occur to me what I'm saying cause I do it out of instinct or conditioning, or habit. I just never thought of it as that serious of a word. But the first time I said I hate you to thomas he was shocked. Cause hate is not an everyday word. And I just don't know why I take it so lightly. Maybe it's because I have every really felt hate and understand it. Maybe it's just because I am ignorant. Or also just the lack of value I put on words. I consider myself a man of my word, but i also think talk is cheap.

I have definitely tried to cut back on the use of the word. But it's also weird saying "I strongly dislike bad drivers!" I feel like I should be living in Britain, the land of no emotion! And if you are British and take offense to that please call and complain because I love British accents. Or Irish accents, or just about any accents. Having some foreign girl grinding up on me, speaking in a language I don't even know, sweating all over me!

sorry, i'll leave the fantasies out of it

So I don't really have a conclusion, just pointing out I don't know what I'm saying half the time