1.31.2006

A refreshing change

So for those who have checked recently noticed this awkward space before my postings. So I decided to try to fix it. Changed the settings, that didn't work, so I changed the template. And it feels good. I like keeping things interesting a fresh, cause things tend to go stale. I try to change the background and phrase on my cell phone every 1-2 weeks. Little stuff like that...
It's amazing what a little tweak in a routine can do to refresh things. Be it at work, just a different task, or doing things in a different order.
My travels on the weekends I find very refreshing and relaxing. An essential part of my mental well being. I hope travel is a regular part of my years. Now, when I'm tied to the ball and chain (if I find someone who will have me), and with the kids. I valuing spending time with family and friends at different locations and also seeing and learning about unique cultures. Each american city has it's own unique culture, some mroe obvious than others. For now my travels are limited to where I have free board.
Short attention span = short post
More to come

What is up with that space?

What is up with that space?

can I ask for directions?

Where is the roadmap to life? I mean i guess there's the unspoken roadmap
Go to school => go to college => get a job and be successful.
Damn that doesn't work for everybody!
I'm starting to think college is the next step in economic development. It's really quite genius.
Do you know that billions of dollars are spent every year trying to get companies advertisements to influence the young mind of children and adolescents so they make their parents buy them things. Everybody knows beer and sex are what it takes to sell to men, it's even the new diet craze. http://http://www.cnn.com/2006/HEALTH/diet.fitness/01/30/diet.nutrisystem.ap/index.html

Anyway, so on top of children demanding their parents spend, they also grow up with these fond associations for McDonald's and The Gap. Now, this isn't revolutionary at all, anyone who has taken a child psychology course knows that's how much companies are spending to get to kids. But think about this... a bunch of CEOs conspiring in an underground cave around a well-lit round table tossing out ideas of "How can we get these dependent kids to make their parents spend MORE money?"

Quiet sinister looking guy in the back
"How about we depend they extend their dependence. We'll make high school go looooooooooooooonger. Charge exorbinant amounts of money, tell them they are bettering themselves!"

That's it! It's over! NO, higher education isn't new in anyway shape or form, BUT to convince so many that it is so necessary to make money. I mean students are throwing themselves into tens of thousands of dollars in debt without really thinking it through. Their parents encourage them to go to college because in their time, college was rare, people actually had to think to get through college. Nowadays you are screwed if you don't get a college degree ( i know from experience) but those that do have college degrees are also finding that their degree is becoming more and more meaningless. So, what do you have to do?? Grad school! 4 more years! 4 more years! Grad school is setup to help the students become more independent from their parents, but still getting that money. So I'm beginning to think that the only thing keeping us away from another black tuesday is college education. Keeps the financial juices flowing

Now, you may look at this as a bitter drop out just shaking his fist at the institution, but I'm not really so mad at the colleges. go capitalism! I'm more angry at myself for letting myself believe I was ready for college out of high school. FOr not being aware enough to fully realize what college was all about. I fully intend on getting my degree, it's just going to be on my own schedule, and when I know what I am doing.

College isn't a bad thing, it's actually helping us move towards a more enlightened america! I can not wait for the up and coming generation to sift into politics and high ranking business positions because I think that this awareness will help start a revolution against all the corruption and special interests that have taken control of the U.S.

So, i think we need to take a harder look at who we are sending to college and help better prepare students for the financial realities of life after college!

***Random side note***
It is unfortunate that this best selling author lied about the events in his book, and it's unfortunate that Oprah had to go through that ordeal, but let's be honest, fact or fiction, 2 million readers means it's a damn good book! So instead of a memoir it's a good fiction story loosely based on the author's experiences. Get over it! People have told worse lies!

1.19.2006

Craaaaaaaaaaaap!!!

I had this post going about work and i was two paragraphs into it when something weird happen. It disappeared, so I don't know. It's hard enough to come up with stuff to write about let alone try to rewrite it when it disappears. I want to throw something! Good anger management skills!

HAPPY 86th BIRTHDAY GRAMMA!

Work is rough at 6am. THe lady I am training with is constantly making fun of my zombie like behavior. I think I am only fully awake after lunch. I take a nap during morning break, and generally just don't talk until afternoon. I try to pay attention but the attention span is seriously affected by sleep deprivation. I am working on going to bed early! (i swear I am going to bed after i write this) It's gotten a little better, but I'm also combing that at the same time as running on a consistent basis and that just makes me even more tired. BUt also I need to find something I can eat in the morning twinkies and cupcakes aren't working well. Yogurt maybe? Fruit goes bad too fast. I don't know, I'd love a little steak and eggs, but no way in hell am I waking up earlier than 30 minutes before I have to be at work.

I am defintely acting more like an "adult" trying to get into a routine. But I know as soon as I get too comfortable I'm going to want to do something spontaneous or just different to show that I am not stuck to my routine. I hope I get vacation at work!

1.16.2006

And the beat goes on

Sometimes I think I'm crazy

Like when I start twitching and shouting obscenities. Well, i haven't really done that, but i gotta question my own sanity sometimes. And that's where you help! If I write a crazy blog (note: last blog was definitely in that range) you gotta let me know. You gotta say 'Hey man! That's crazy talk! YOu are started to sound three sheets past the wind?' Cause I think i can be crazy sometimes. And I just need to be reminded. OR maybe I think I'm crazy and I'm not being crazy? yes/no? THis is hard for me to judge. I try to judge my actions as objective as possible, but some things, you gotta rely on other people for. So if i do sound crazy leave a note, give me a call, anything

the last week has been good. I've been focuising on getting to the gym. And spending quality time with people. I've gotten to spend more time with Erin, which I always enjoy, but it is very sporadic. Depends on how busy her schedule is and what kind of mood she is in. Finally worked out that she could come to sunday night dinner! That was an excellent time had by all. And softball is officially a project. Let the games begin! Financing and registering to play are first, roster selection is next, then pulling together all the resources we need for the season. Before I know it, I'll be hearing "Play ball!" So my life continues, and I think i'll write about the interesting stuff that has been happening at work lately. Adios for now!

1.11.2006

Gray as Ash

My life was ruined by fairy tales. I watching disney movies and read a lot of good books! And they were all great. I absorbed them a little too well. I have a very vivid imagination and I think it made my childhood a wonderful world of play. Unfortunately, i created such a fantasty world, i've fooled myself into thinking the real world was the same. The happy endings, finding the princess, slaying the dragon, saving the day. All too cliche. But I was wholly convinced good always triumphed over evil. I would say high school was when it all started going down hill.
Not only just being more aware of the actual world, school started to change my perception. The reading began to show shades of gray. Everything wasn't so black and white. High school was just the beginning, I would say I was still able to find the good in the world, but started to see how everything didn't work out for the best. People had to make choices, and at times, the choices were destructive. 'Good' people making bad choices and 'Bad' people making good choices. Even that labeling was invalidated. Which is for the best, because labels are never good, but this was an invasion on my world. I was so unawares. I think one of the things that kept the fairy tale alive for me was my high school sweetheart. I was still able to convince myself that the good guy gets the girl, and there are still happy endings. The world can stay shaded, while I still carry the dream of a ahppy ending in my heart.
College was a rude awakening. It started with a broken heart and ended with a miserable exit. Everything in between is a big blur real. I went through a 'dark age' where punk music enticed me (that's about as dark as I got) I became jaded towards the institution, college, my education became the enemy. Fortunately for me, no matter how bad I felt it got I still had a strong network of family and friends to rely on. And really it was more of an attitude and view on life more than anything. Everything became so gray to the point it was bland. Nothing excited me, everything lost it's value. I didn't see life, love, happiness the same way. Considered it unattainable. Riding a teeter-totter of emotion i made it through 3 years of college. It getting progressively harder as i needed to prepare myself to face the real world. I cracked under the pressure and had to withdraw my first semester senior year. That was the bottom of the pit for me. Coming home helped, i was instantly removed from the pressure of school work and social expectations I was beginning to dread. It was still hard but I found more of a spark. I pretty much did nothing for 10 months, until I fell into AmeriCorps.
AmeriCorps is a fairy tale in itself. A new age fairy tale. One full of government bullshit and politically correctness.
AmeriCorps was in short amazing. Getting a chance to do the work I did, travel, and help everyone was such a huge lift. I will not trade any one of those months no matter how much I hated going through it at the time. Making the friends I did and seeing everything I did is an experience I would recommend to everyone and never relinquish. It restored my faith in goodness.
Since AmeriCorps I have bumbled around, trying to find my feet. And while I still am jaded towards fairy tales. I am also coming to terms with what it is to be 'good' and being a 'hero' I just want a taste of the glory days. Go back to a simpler time. Find some color is this drab world the took away my childhood. So, i plod through day for day looking for the happiness i dropped somewhere along the path. No breadcrumb trail, no fairy godmother, no princess charming. Just a blind search and a quest to become the man I want to and find the happily ever after...

1.10.2006

Working for the man

So when I have rough days at work I find comfort in letting my mind wander to thoughts of softball and thinking about that. And there have been more rough days lately, but that's mostly my fault. I don't go to bed early enough, andI pay the price. Working sat 6am-2:30pm is nice, but I need to go to bed on time.
I have gotten into the unfortunate habit of sleeping at work. And that's not good. But the first week back after the new year we have had no work. And the guy I'm training with will talk to me some and kind of show me some stuff here and there, but that can only last so long without actually work to demonstrate it with. So he likes to wander and chat it up with people and what not. Well, I'm just dead weight to this social butterfly and I get left in the room all by my lonesome. I will play on the computer some, but there's not a lot I can do because I don't have the internet, just the intranet. So, I check out PPG's stock price. Read up on the cafeteria menu, check out the different locations of PPG and look at the job postings. That gets old pretty fast, so I'll take naps. And the guy I'm training with didn't really mind. But our boss came him, and he didn't really mind so much but he didn't want someone else coming in and seeing me sleep. So, i try not to do that anymore. And there's been more work lately. But the last thing I want to do is blow this opportunity! So i need to make a concerted effort to become an old man and get more of a set schedule. It's hard enough to do it now, i am not excited for summertime when there are a ton of people around to hang out with.
I entered a new age today when I ordered Papa John's online. I could get use to this! (Bad idea) I almost signed up for a free month of Blockbuster online but I realized the last time I signed up for a "free month" i commited myself to a gym for 3 years. That was a bad idea! More to come

1.08.2006

My recent travels

So the 5 best movies probably won't happen, but I've got a better story. My recent travels had me dropping Stephen off at BG. I had to move all his stuff cause of his sprained ankle. Not fun, but after my parents and I went to visit Aunt Eleanor.

Aunt Eleanor is actually my great-Aunt. She is amazing! I barely know her, but I was so happy I got to share this visit with her. She just turned 101 on December 31 2005. She is living in an assisted living residence in the Toledo/Bowling Green area. She is sharp as a tack. She recognized my mom right away, and other than having to talk a little louder than normal, you wouldn't know she was 101. I didn't really talk to her much, but just watching her interact with my mom was fantastic.
It was funny to listen to the stories she told. She recently had her power wheel chair taken away because she was a "bad driver" She was bumping into walls, and speeding down the halls, and I just wanted to laugh so hard listening to her talk about this. She also felt that the nurse's aide and the Sister who came to take it away were a little hestitant because they thought they might feel her wrath. But she was fine with it. So, now she is in a wheel chair, and she can push herself around the room, but needs help going long distances. Well, when my mom asked how much she could move herself around and if she used her feet to move around, A. Eleanor responded "I don't use my feet, I'm a lady of luxury" Too much! Too much!
All in all, even though I had very little interaction with her, it was refreshing and inspiring to find such vigor in this 101 year old lady I can call family! She has several pen pals throughout the world, including my mom, and that is how she uses her times. In addition she participates in 90% of the activities the residence puts on. The only ones she doesn't do are the shopping and dinner trips because "she doesn't want to spend her money"
I hope I am as cheerful and kind-spirited and lively when I'm 101. It's amazing what little treasures we come upon day by day!

1.05.2006

Take me to the mooooooooovies

So I like way too many movies. I mean, I don't think every movie is freaking awesome, but I am easily entertained. My standards are pretty low. I recently saw "The Ringer" and thought it was entertaining, i enjoyed it thoroughly. I also saw Syriana, which wasn't bad, I just found it hard to follow the storyline. But definitely over the course of the years, which include many a movie thanks to $4 movie night (hot damn!) I have probably liked a whopping 75-83% of the movies I've seen. With the quality hollywood is comingout with these days, i am thinking a true movie connisseur should enjoy anywhere from 25-41% of the movies they see. And you can increase the percentages by being more selective about what you go see. You can always wait to hear, read reviews, ask Siskel and Roepert. You know the game, me...
I am a movie whore.
I will see anything that looks decent, or some that I know will be bad, but for some reason I am drawn to an actor/actress or have sentimental connections to the storyline.

Some mistakes I've made in the past:
"Win a Date with Tad Hamilton" Thank you Topher Grace for being so damn funny in "That 70's Show" and so damn ridiculous in this movie

"The Dukes of Hazzard" I thought Jessica Simpson could singlehandledly make this movie worth, and while her scenes were slightly entertaining for guys, the movie was just horrible. One critic put it right "If you make a a movie off of a bad TV show, you are going to get a bad movie" Oops, I did it again!

"AVP" Ok, so I had seen neither any of the Alien movies or the predator movies. I heard the originals were both classics. However, I got so absorbed in the hype of this movie, and was really looking for a sweet action movie with some wicked cool special effects, I bought into it. AHHHHHHHHHHH Never again. I'll burn my eyes out. This movie was so ridiculous. People died before you even got to see their character develop. Damn!

The surprisingly good films:

Ok, so I haven't given this as much thought as the bad ones. But two films, both by the Farrelly brothers are surprisingly sweet. While somewhat crude in humor and taste, the heart of the story helps make the film better.

"Stuck on You" is one of my all time favorites. It's a great story, and just so completely ridiculous it makes me laugh.

"The Ringer" Not nearly as good as stuck on you, but definitely better than you expect. The first 20 minutes are so are pretty rough, so you gotta give it a chance, but by the end you really are cheering for everybody!

The Comedic Classics

I am a huge Adam Sandler fan! So, I'm a little biased. He had a phenomenal streak of hilarious to semi-hilarious movies that I don't think another actor has acheived. Happy Gilmore, Billy Madison, The Wedding Singer, The Waterboy, and even some of his more recently stuff has been decent. But Happy Gilmore is on my top all-time funny list, it's definitely in my top two.

Will Ferrell is definitely a comedic genious and my role model. His stuff unfortunately tends to get dragged down by other cast members or just a bad script. He has schieved his pinnacle in The Anchorman and he played an awesome role as Frank the Tank in Old School, but he needs to get a couple more notches in his belt if he wants to compete with Sandler.

"Wedding Crashers" has achieved elite status. That movie gets better everytime i watch it. Vince Vaughn and Owen Wilson play off of each other so well in the movie, I start laughing before the jokes are even told! I can't wait too laugh. Pathetic? a little, but let me tell you, that movie is fantastic. If you haven't seen it atleast 3 times, you better catch up!

Odd-ball Comedy
Zoolander is also one of my favorites even though I know how ridiculously good looking it is. I mean ridicuously stupid it is. But come on any movie that involved a freak gasoline fight accident is pure comedic genius disguised under piles of shit!

More to come, i will be compiling a list of "All time greats" maybe 4-5 movies I consider must see! Ideally it will be none of the movies mentioned here.

Good morning, good afternoon, and good night