My Music Theory

So, since i know one person wants me to expound here it is, completely unplugged, unedited, and it'll be a ramble, and may go places you don't like. But I'm taking it there!

Music is so very important to me. It's kind of hard to describe. It's not like "Hey, who's this band? What song is this? I need it!" I don't go searching for new stuff, I'm not looking for the next big thing, i just want something to listen to. I'm not in it for that kind of stuff.
Simply put, I think music is my closest connection to spirituality. That sounds pretty heavy, and it probably is. But I just feel that without music my life would be incomplete. I need it. It's absolutely perfect when you hear the song that complements your mood. There is nothing like it! It has the power to control your emotions. When I'm up, I want cheery poppy stuff. When I'm down I want dark and angry! When I'm light hearted i want something goofy, and when I'm sad i want a deep bellowing somber tune. Have to have it. I find comfort in it, it enhances my mood. For better or for worse.
I think music is an outlet for me. A place of comfort. As far as being 'spiritual' about it. I think it just delves so deep into my being that it takes on a new meaning. Not that every song or everytime i listen to music it is. But there are times, when I need it.
THe funny thing is, the only time I remember paying attention in church or being awake and alert is to sing. I would sleep through the readings, the homily what? it's time for communion?? Yikes! But I would be singing the songs with passion and energy. Because it was singing!
That's the other thing that comes with music, i enjoy listening to it, but I really don't know what I'd do if I couldn't create. (note to readers: yes, unfortunately I am considering my singing 'making music')
I can't sing. I occassionally am on tune, but never for an entire song. I get made fun of for it, and I am fine with that. I still am going to sing. Just to warn you, cause it delves back into that outlet of emotion, whatever i'm feeling can come out in song.I need to be able to sing.
ANd playing an instrument is also a good way. The bagpipe isn't the most musical instrument, but it has it's power. It's the reason people want it played at their funerals. It is so strong, a comfort! I wish I was on the listening side more than on the playing. Cause it offers strength and beauty to the mourners. And it feels good, it's an honor to be able to provide that service for them.
I could be a lot better at the bagpipes, but I am not. That is a problem! Cause it all comes down to the music.
I really feel like i haven't even done this post justice. I could go on about certain songs that i am not the same since I've heard them. But I have to get ready for class. There is more I could just babble about. Maybe some more later.
So there you have it, if you can't discern how much music means to me in my lifetime, then this blog was a waste.
and i'm spent