Suppression

I have an hour to kill before class, and I can't work on my homework, because the math lab is currently in use, so I blog:

I for some reason have not learned to deal with my emotions (good thing I have 8.5 hours of mindless work to just ponder everything that is wrong with me) I am all backwards about it, and I really need to get that sort of stuff straightened out, because I don't want to be known as the overly-emotional guy who has no rational thought.
I tend to take things way too personal. I have a hard time removing emotion from situations that it should. Work is a good example, although I can't say I have any examples. I just feel there are times when I am waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too moody, and there is no reason to be. I let my emotions control me sometimes. Not good, not good. And there isn't exactly a class to teach you. So you learn through life?
I think logic plays into it a bit to. Or atleast, if I hold an opinion on something, and I am in a debate defending it and I can't, I get emotional. Usually when I know what I think/feel is right, but I can't convey that to the other person. Regardless of if that person is listening. It's frustrating when you can't get your point across! And so there have been times when I am questioning my logic because I can't defend it or explain it.
The other thing I do is hide my emotions. That's mainly when it comes to girls. I mean if I like a girl, why do I pretend not to? Or when someone bugs me about it, why do I act like a 7 year old? Deny deny deny! I try so hard to make it appear that I don't have any interest, or I don't want to show my hand, ever. I could rationalize it by saying I'm just waiting for the right time. But it's probably because I am chicken, or not really willing to take risks. (note: see the Degree commercials) Maybe I'll always be a 7 year old at heart, but that would be sad. If it means I am emotionally developed as a 7 year old. I guess that one gets thought about alot, cause that's what guys do. Think about girls!
Anyway, i've said too much
i'll blog about something else, possibly in 3 minutes!