What is happening to me?

So, I don't know if it's because I"ve played too much softball over the last 7 months or if it's third shift, but I am exhausted. This goes beyond just being tired. My entire upperbody just feels worn, on a daily basis. I'm not excited because it's affecting how/when I sleep, and really throwing my schedule off. I am in an all out war to catch sleep when I can, but sometimes, that means I don't wake up for class. Which really hurts. Some days are better than others, but I wish I could foresee an end to it, but I really think it's going to be like this. If I continue on this scheudle, I could feel like tihs for 2+ years??? Whoa! I don't know if I am ready for that. Maybe, it's just been my non-stop schedule. I think Winter Break will help clear up some of the mystery. But it's just kind of disconcerting how i feel. No me gusta!
i need to read more. I sit around, and pass my idle time watching mindless tv. Just because it doesn't involve thought. One thing I do too much of is Waste my time. Through it away on stuff that isn't really going to better myself. For the short timeI should up for the Leisure Studies class, we talked about the value of actually doing nothing. Stuff with very little benefit to the person: I do not really know the ultimate verdict, but I feel, if it doesn't have any value, then why do it? Or, why am I still watching tv/playing video games if I feel they don't have much value?
Does anyone have an extra $10,000 they want to give me? Cause I could do a lot with that.
I can't wait for softball to end! I know that doesn't sound like me, but I really enjoy the extra time to travel! I already have trips to columbus and new york planned. Who knows where else I might end up? It'll depend partly on the budget, and partly what I decide for my future. I remember last november being a blast! I was traveling all over the place.
I also hope to throw a killer Christmas party again at the new place, but I need the support of my roommates, so come closer to the date, i'll have to figure that one out. Hopefully all the street cred I developed from last year will pay off and will get just as many people if not more.

when will I be who I want to be?