Motivation to Become who I want to

Looking at my last week or so, i'd say I haven't really changed anything in my routine. And maybe did even less of what I said I did. But the good thing is, I was picking up more hours at taco bell. The hard part for me though is my sleep schedule is so out of whack, i can't get into a routine. That would help a lot! We'll see what happens when the new job starts.

A family friend past away, and I get the honor of playing the bagpipes at her funeral. I am just out of practice and do not want to mess up. This lady had an extremely difficult battle with cancer, and she did a wonderful job persevering through the pain. It is sad to see her pass, but she fought while she could.

How does one become the person they want to become? I've found life leaves to many open-ended choices, and the right path is not always easily discernible. It would help if I was a bit more sure of my self and convictions, but I'm not. And I'm generally not a strong-willed person. So if I feel I need to be more strong willed, how do I go about doing that?
This is where I always ask myself if it's genetic. Something unalterable, and I'll always have the same temperament and disposition. I like to think that I won't, because there are traits/character flaws I hope to change. Work in Progress!

I need to get out of Taco Bell! I need to get involved in more sports! Indoor softball might be a possibility! Other then that I've been doing a little guitar playing, more bagpiping, and a lot of t.v. watching. Cable is a good distractor. Too good! Must cut back.

Those are my random thoughts, i'll put more out there