Working 3rd shift is ridiculous. I can never sleep at night, and do nothing all day. It really is not fun sitting around waiting to get tired. Maybe if I were on a more set schedule that would make it more manageable, but right now i'm in fluxx (the extra 'x' is an inside joke, hope you get it) And I feel like because I'm not in a set schedule, i can't do anything worthwhile. Which is my biggest mistake. I feel like I need a routine, then I can start doing stuff, like running, or practicing the bagpipes, or playing pick-up games of basketball.
But if I can't do it, when my time more available to me, why would I do it then. And once I get this routine, I know I am going to start to feel trapped. Like my i have no control over my schedule. And I'll went less demands on my time. It really is flawed thinking; and I need to be able to take time to do stuff I think is important or has value. Here's a list of stuff I'd like to do

a) play softball (yay fallball!)
b) exercise , lifting weights, runnings
c) practice the bagpipes /it's hard though because it can be annoying to people
d) play basketball/football/tennis/cricket??/racquetball or anyother sport for some variety
e) read more, I need good books to read!!
f) learn stuff, expand my mind, broaden my horizens
g) learn the guitar.

This are what i want to do, and I have the free time to do it, but I don't do a good job at fitting them into my schedule. Which is sad, because I think i would be a happier person, if I successfully complete those tasks on a daily/weekly basis. So, why do I find it easier to not pursue these. HOw much does laziness play into this all. And where can I get that push to go with something and continue with it, instead of letting it fizzle??? What do I do?? That's my speculation, i think i like leaving stuff open ended so I can get feedback!

Have a great night everybody!