So I was told that my blog has a rather somber tone. And I would agree, i definitely tend to vent or use it as an outlet for what I don't like.

Life is 80% attitude. You can take a lot of shit if you know how to digest it, but the most important thing is really looking for the good in situations. Something I do not do enough of. I have a rathersomber outlook on my life, and there isn't any reason to. I am just focusing on the wrong aspects of my life, and because of that it perpetuates my negative outlook. My team leader in AmeriCorps, she has an insane outlook on life, the most positive person i've ever met. And I could never be that positive, but she handles what life throws at her, and she definitely has done some sweet stuff. Here positive attitude helps her lead thel ife she wants to be living, and that I respect.

I would say that I am not leading the life I want to be living, and I can attribute that mostly to my attitude. Because I've always had potential. I just haven't translated that into the success I am looking for. It's a growing process. I can't instantly change my attitude and make everything perfect with a snap of my fingers. But focusing on interpretting life differently will definitely be huge steps to achieving what I want to.

So on with the good:

We celebrated Tom's 28th birthday at the apartment on Friday, and that was a great party. I got to hang out with a lot of cool people, and we al enjoyed ourselves. We had over 20 people in the apartment at one point. THomas and I worked our asses off to clean up and getting enough seating. Thanks to Terry for letting us borrow his moving van!

I just was hired by PPG as a Colorist specialist lab techinician. It sounds fancier than it is, but it pays pretty well, and it will afford me opportunities I woulnd't receive if I stayed at Taco Bell. I also have heard rave reviews about the company. And from my experience, Taco Bell treats it's upper management crappy. So, not going that route is something to get excited about.
I pseudo-celebrated with a fancy dinner at Pier W. Erin, Thomas, and Kate joined me and Stephen was our server. It was a very good evening, and the food was fantastic. It's expensive, but definitely worth it (every once in a while) I would recommend Pier W to anyone.

Softball is my drug. I could live without softball, but why do I have to. It makes me so happy, and I derive so much happiness and joy from playing the game and hanging out with my team. I hope my body holds up long enough for me to play anohter 20-40 years. I seriously see myself as one of the 60 year olds on the mound still playing for the love the game. My body will dictate how long my softball career is!

And now that i have a better idea of what I'll be doing for a while and not so much in fluxx, i can start to focus on the little things, and find more activities that i can enjoy and work on improving myself.

More to come